Life as we know it-in the eyes of pain

I haven't written lately because too much has been on my mind and if I write, I will end up writing a ton.

Therefore, I have limited myself.

I'm in some pain today, my dog decided to chase my sisters cat, yank the grip I had off the chain, you guessed it, cat goes running, dog goes running, I go running.  Finally I get ahold of the cord and in the process completely tear up my hands.

As a result, four large deep cuts and three blisters. 

Oh the joy this is.

I've been applying to jobs and went and visited some former mentors about this.  One gave me the name of someone he knew, I talked to him, we share a common ground with Journalism/Business.  Supposed to meet with him this week.  Finally some good news!

My mom came and played Scrabble with me today.  Played two games, I won both, despite the pain.

I think (hope) things could be looking up this week.  I had dinner with a friend last night and he made me laugh and that was something I needed to be doing again.

It just gets so boring sitting here alone all day.  I really don't have anyone to talk to so I talk to the computer screen.

Lame, I know.

Life as we know it-In the eyes of liars

A few months ago, someone who I had known (not really that well) talked to me out of the blue.

Part of me went against my better judgement.  I had been hurt many times before, but for some reason I went against my head.

And I should have listened better to what I was feeling.

I thought it was special, it was helping me deal with a loss before, but then all of a sudden it all changed.

You lied to me that night, something people told me was going to happen.

If you would have been honest, it would have been a lot easier to take and I could have moved on with my life.

But then you feel like you need to rub it in more.  How can one person go the way you did in two days time?

One thing for sure, I know what you said to me was a line of shit, you got what you wanted. 

For that, life as we know it, you know you are scum.

Life as we know it-in the eyes of Max

Sometimes life can be full, other times it can be empty.  In the case of my dog, I wonder what in the hell is he thinking?  I lie there on my bed, him next to me, head on my stomach and out of nowhere he starts trying to eat flies.  Doesn't budge from where he is.  At 4 in the a.m. as well.  When that happens, I'm awake, no putting me back to sleep.  Gives me a chance to reflect on certain things though. 

When it rains, it pours.  Never forget that.

When life gives you lemons, ask where the damn sugar is. 

When life throws you a curveballs, ask for a slider next time. 

This sums up everything lately for me.  It has been rocky the last few weeks.  No job, no money to pay that damn cell phone bill that people rang up (not me), at least I have a home for now. 

After Monday night, I realized how much I can trust people.  Truth is, not very much.  Because they find ways to hurt you in every way imaginable. 

Just remember, life as we know it-it isn't about who you think you know, it is about who you do know.  In the case of Max, he knows I'm there and I'm not going to get upset at him.

But, he continues to try to eat flies while laying on my stomach, off the bed he goes.